What a blessing
You might think listening to this song, “wow, he is really trying to find a Godly woman.” As wonderful and mysterious as they might be, I have had a number of them in my life. But now the sad part—my conceit and self-centeredness made me push them away.
I am no expert on relationships, unless you count failures and mess-ups as moving towards some kind of wisdom. I have two broken marriages, and several other relationships that I tore apart. The strange thing, each of these was with a beautiful and Godly woman. People sometimes say it takes two to break up, but I can tell you my selfishness was only met by compassion and forgiveness by each of them.
So here I am, into this project about regrets and trying to find peace at the “end of the road,” and the Lord brings to my mind the people I have hurt and lost. He has forgiven me, and through His grace each of them have forgiven me as well. And all that has magnified just how Godly they are.
Here is the ironic thing. I did look. I have hiked all over, been in caves, studied a bunch of varied topics, worked for a handful of degrees, sang, written, painted, been curious about everything, searched and searched. (Follow the song here, I’m pretty much going verse by verse!) What am I left with? Metaphors and hyperbole. Not love. Not comfort. Not a relationship. My pride sacrificed all of that. There is the lesson. Be so very thankful for what you have. Don’t be the recipient of that maxim about “you never know what you have until you’ve lost it.”
So, listen to the song and appreciate the Godly people in your life. They are amazing and beautiful and precious. Love is a mystery, and a blessing.
I still have the first guitar I ever had, a 1974 Ovation Classical (non-cutaway). You can hear it cutting in and out of the mix. The whole thing came out pretty [intentionally] rough sounding, I was going after a raw kind of “folky” sound. I have never had a beautiful voice (!) and it hasn’t gotten any more pure with age!